I’ve done it all when it comes to women. Good & bad. The way I’ve been living is getting really old. Going from girl to girl, not giving a Fuck, having a lot of casual sex. Just sitting here thinking over everything. I’ve only had casual sex my entire life. I need to chill off that. I’ve had enough for 3 lifetimes. At 25 years old its getting boring. I’ve had shit twisted for a very long time. I could be doing better. Just share my heart , body , & life with just one person. Something I’ve yet to experience. I used to blame not meeting the “right girl” , but how could I ever notice or find her if I’m always out trying to fill the voids I have in the wrong way. Me being single is completely my fault. I’m owning up to my bullshit. I’m a decent guy , with great potential. And from this day forward I’m going to strive to be that great guy. Can’t erase my past but I can only write my future. I didn’t used to be this guy. Don’t know when or where I lost myself but I’m glad I caught the bullshit before it got worse. It’s crazy because I’ve never been the guy to go out looking for females to Fuck with like most men do these days. But I have been the guy to not catch feelings and waste mine and other’s time. I’ll never be satisfied if I don’t give anyone a chance. I have all the tools but I’ve done nothing but talk about it and don’t actually put in the work. It’s not fear so I don’t know why I’ve been that way. Can’t use the “ive been hurt” line. I’m ready to enjoy life in a different way. I’m really starting to see things differently.I’ve been sleeping, I had to wake up.